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I thought about this a little more, and wanted to add something.

There is no way that T could know how important this session was to you. She doesn't know the work you have been doing outside of therapy, and the processing you're doing with us. She may not now how hard you're working to be able to talk. If you haven't told her, she can't know how much you need her, and how much you need your sessions.

T has taught me that he can't read my mind, and I have to ask for what I need. Even when it seems SO OBVIOUS. In fact, there have been times when I KNOW T knows what I need, and he still won't give it to me unless I ask specifically. Ugh, I hate it, but it honestly has taught me a really important skill that I can use outside of therapy. When I need something, I have to ask for it. My H, my friends, my kids, can't read my mind. But if I ask for what I need, I usually can get it.

What if you call T and simply say "I need to see you before the 14th"? Just that one sentence. It doesn't have to be perfect, you don't have to sound any certain way. You can sound angry, you can stumble over your words, you can stutter...and T will know what you really need, and might be able to give it to you if she has a spot free. Even if she doesn't have a spot free, she will start learning how important therapy is to you, and might handle something like this differently in the future.

to you.