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Your work environment sounds very very unhealthy for you mental health wize. I think it'd be a good idea if you started looking elsewhere for a more emotionally healthy job.
You sound like you are falling into a deep depression. Do you see a Therapist or take meds? You have to do something to combat this fall into despair, or else it'll be all the more harder to get out of.
Please be gentle with yourself.
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“In depression . . . faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the...feeling felt as truth...that no remedy will come -- not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. . . . It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul.”-William Styron
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