As longer I am away from him as clearer I see it. I feel very focused and get to know myself slowly again. I am not sure if he brainwashed me, since he was also verbal abusive and I blame everything on me.
If I wanted to talk to him, he said is not the right time, so what that means in a marriage, do I have to wait until is the right time for him or can I talk openly if he has nothing else to do??