Cheers all and thanks! PufNStuf 2 for thinking of me at just the right moment. feel much more confident now. Coming back with two recipies, lithium and risperidone, and looking forward to feeling different, any change is welcome

PS Sugahorse and PufNStuf - did that test with music trying all from aggressive to depri and it works - will carefully design a few playlists, but avoid them until medication starts working...