i have no idea what her feeling is about me not comming anymore over this. but i do know she wouldnt be happy to find out about the SI. i know she would stop seeing me over that.but i have a feeling me saying im not comming anymore and canceling my apt made her mad and is probibly glad to be rid of me.i messed things up quite badly im affraid.i dont see her as the kind of T that gives people 2ed chances.dont know if i blame her