Hi everyone,

Ok, so here is where I am at and the current dilemma.

I am trying to go back to school ASAP, but since I left, my overall situation has changed....Ok, that is an understatement......

I think in order to overcome depression you need to have something to look forward to and life needs to be a bit in order...and right now, it is not

My leaving school when I did caused a mess because I was 7 weeks away from finishing my required work and about to begin my internship.

I had a small apartment that I was able to finance through loans and my family, near the school and internships.

And I was perfectly healthy (as healthy as I can get for me physically) both mentally and physically.

Now, I am totally run down (I was told to rest and do nothing else), and what I went through led to an insane amount of medical bills.

My family keeps saying "look forward to the future", but I am in a bind...

To move ahead, I need to be able to put out some money to live close to school, or I need to commute over an hour.

Given how exhausted I am (I also have chronic fatigue and have had it before all of this - it's 100x worse now - you know what stress does to you), the commuting is really not an option.

Also, all of the internships (the good ones at least) are located near the school.

What do I do?

There are no scholarships (even though I have great grades)....

I feel like my walking into that court room to do what I had to do last January led to a snowballing of events (not to mention the PTSD, depression, anxiety, panic, argh!!!,) that have made things incredibly difficult - I don't see an easy solution.

Living on campus costs a fortune as well.

If I finish my degree I will be able to get a good job and live wherever I want, but if I wait, I feel like I am only delaying things.

All of this is stressing me out

Anyone have any ideas?

Yack