rainbow, you really are doing great work but yeah that usually feels worse before it feels better. so feeling yucky is progress--surprise! i think when we've buried our emotions so deep it takes time for them to come to the surface. kind of like little plant stems just peaking thru the dirt. the feelings will grow and grow slowly and poof one day you get a little bigger burst of emotion and then can relax a bit. i have found that my healing can be both process and crisis. i have both slow and steady times and fast, more intense times of recovery.

it sounds like kt wants to work on your losing your mom whereas you want to work on the early childhood stuff. maybe you can ask her why or ask if you can focus on the early childhood piece next for a little bit since that seems to really press at you.