I talked to my t about this for awhile.
I’m not going to do anything right now. I can’t handle talking to him. I don’t want anyone to know about it within the town. I just want nothing to do with the man anymore. I am still in crisis mode from retrieving the memory.
I really still don’t have an answer. I don’t really care about the business, but I can’t really stop doing business with him without confronting him in some way. I’m a real estate agent and I find investments for him. I’m kind of stuck. For now, I’m not going to change anything business wise. I am going to stop having anything to do with him outside of the office. He goes to a lot of family events because he is a good friend of my father (who gave me to him to abuse).
My father and this other person (and most of my abusers) are old and frail now. I don’t worry about my physical safety, but emotionally it is hellish. My father may not be able to beat me or hurt me in other ways but his words are emotionally crippling to me. I still can’t manage to pull myself away from family obligation even though I know how much it hurts me.
Thank you both for reading and reflecting. It’s helpful to know others are listening.
Gem
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