We terminated toady because I can't afford to keep seeing T. Maybe some time in the fall, but I don't think I will be able to afford it even then. She is going to give me a referral to the university center. I hate this. I feel numb right now, but it still hurts so much. And it's not like I can blame her. I feel so alone. And the ironic (or maybe sad) thing was that I forgot to pay her and so have to send her the last payment.

I hate my life.