oh no! this is terrible news! i'm so sorry to hear that, i can't imagine what you're feeling right now. was this sudden? how long had you been seeing her? do you even want a referral? (sorry if these questions are too much.)

i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better. can you do some imagery? sometimes that helps me get through. like picture your future self with money in your pocket and being able to afford whatever kind of therapy that you want and need. see yourself smiling and happy and at peace with yourself. be as detailed as possible with your clothing, the noises you hear, the things you see and smell..

this is the only thing i can think of, besides a hug (((googley)))