I'm sleepy.

I had a tough time at my regular medical doctor's office today. The reason I was there was just to get the doctor to give me refills for my meds. I didn't want to be there. When I arrived, I was asked to fill out forms...basically updating my record. Only, nothing has changed. So I was annoyed and barely filled anything out. The office staff got annoyed (and rightly so...they didn't understand what the big deal was). It really shouldn't have been a big deal.

I suppose just because it was unexpected. I've been going there for more than a decade...nothing's changed with me. I think it partly hurt because I was asked about my medical history. Requiring me to check the box for mental issues under medical history, when so much of that is in my chart including info about being committed, seemed mean.

Then I felt badly about being slightly disruptive and a little rude to the staff...she was just trying to do her job. It wasn't a psychiatric facility, just a regular doctor office, she's not used to dealing with crazy-ish people. I felt stupid for making the fuss...it wasn't a huge fuss, but fuss enough. I felt stupid for getting upset over it. I wanted to cry and apologize for being so stupid.

On the up side, they got me in and out rather quickly...

I did get very special exciting news that a family member is pregnant (but it's a secret...so nobody tell no one...

No more doctor visits this week. No more nothing. Just staying home and hiding.