It's unfair.

It's like women who's periods sync. Except, our mood swings don't sync.

I found him passed out COLD DRUNK on the kitchen floor the other night. My Mom was a blackout alcoholic, so I just put a pillow under his head and checked for aspiration. Finally got him to bed. He definitely aspirated his own VOMIT. I stayed up ALL night to check on him.

I don't even want to tell my Mom (we're very close).

Now he's been in bed since that happened. We're supossed to be at a very important function YESTERDAY and it was a huge goal of his.

If I don't get out today, I'm going to get depressed. I get SO angry at him. I have no right to be angry...I used to slink off into bed for days...but this weekend was super-important to him....if I say anything, I'm afraid he'll bite my head off.

I was in a good place...two days of this has worn me down.

Supossed to be in very tight quarters if we DO go....and I think I'd rather stay home. The event has nothing to do with me. I'm so angry at him, I could throw a wet towel in his face.

I feel like packing up for a weekend trip to Mom's. Let him deal with his own self. I guess I"m not so understanding because he CONSTANTLY forgets his BPD med. Like he doesn't care. He doesn't seem to understand he has to be consistent. We only have problems when someone forgets their meds. It's like he doesn't care.

Sorry. Had to rant. Just very upset.

ETA: Maybe I wouldn't be as upset if he weren't letting a lot of people down...he needs to be there for their event to go smoothly....and it's like he doesn't care he's letting down a bunch of people...including kids. That's what gets me. The Moms are calling nonstop, panicking (he's financial support). He won't even call them back. I'm really disappointed in him. I don't dare get involved and contact them.