Thank you kd

At times like right now when I can think more lucidly, my fears do seem to go back and forth...

On the one hand I do have a lot of very very real stressors and very serious things to worry about: the car reposession, the unpaid bills, the summonses, etc.

But I also know that depression takes things out of perspective. So at times I feel there will be no way to overcome these things and at other times I wonder if the depression is making things seem worse than they are. That can be hard to justify when I realize I am almost out of food again and I have no more clean socks left and have no way to get to the laundromat or grocery store on my own.

I'm trying to think positively but everytime I start writing I turn negative again.

I went back to bed when the evaluators left and was in bed until after 3:00 today, I did finally get up and shower and now I am going to have something to eat.