... I think it's good that you are telling people though. You've obviously been holding it back and in. You knew it was going to happen, you told your T, and they didn't help you in time... You did what you could and I'm sure you tried to keep this from happening. Sometimes wanting something just isn't enough. You know?

But you still told us, and you told your T. That is good! I'm not saying that what you did was the best thing that could happen!!! That is certainly not true... However, I think that it's very strong of you to not hide this and to not keep it bottled up inside yourself.