Not really sure where to post this. I guess since I've been diagnosed Bipolar II, I'll put it here... but not sure if it's a bipolar trait or not. Anyway, just wondering if anyone has had an experience of feeling like they need a human security blanket? Let me explain what I mean....
I tend to find one person, and cling to them for dear life. I'm not dependant- in the sense that I can make my own decisions (though do value their input) but emotionally and spiritually, I do become dependant. It's always only one person at a time in my life. And not in the romantic sense. It near kills me when they leave (for whatever reason). There's only been 3 people in my life like this, and 2 of them are long distance and we only communicate through emails and such. All three have been very strong spiritual mentors. The first 2, I dont talk to anymore (long stories but didn't end badly- per se). The one I'm talking to now-- i know he has his own life, family, etc... but I find myself emailing him every time something goes wrong. Every mood fluctuation. Every new idea. and I check my email several times a day/night waiting for a reply (that usually takes a week or more). He says it doesn't bother him. He's very supportive. But why do I do this? Why do I cling to certain people as if that person is my security blanket?

Does anyone else experience this? Does it even have a name? I've tried to google it. Not coming up with anything. Sorry for the length of this post. Thanks.