I AM kind of in a panic mode, and I AM manufacturing this in my head. You're right. I just don't know how to stop feeling this way. This actually reminds me of what I went through after our last big rupture and I kept calling her and calling her, trying to get her to say what I needed her to say. Until I finally just TOLD her exactly what I needed her to say.

And you're right, she has already said it. I just need to hear it again. I don't know why. I'm trying to tell myself if it was true 24hrs ago, it's true now. But it doesn't FEEL true. And that disconnect between my head and my heart seems so hard to bridge right now.