hey zoo, I know what you're going through because I am going through something similar with my T. I have been calling my T a lot lately due to being triggered by her not returning a phone call (among other things). I don't usually call her much but I really need to know that she is there, that i am able to get ahold of her when i need her, and that she continues to care about me even when i am slipping a bit. I always feel better about our relationship when things are going well in my life and i am doing well because T responds better to me when i am doing well it seems. So when i am really struggling, it gets hard because i am so afraid of burning her out, rejection, or even termination. I know it's DBT, and we are supposed to be able to call T anytime, but still they are human and make mistakes or forget to call, or get really busy with life. Still, it seems the neediness grows and grows until the right words are said to calm us.

If I were you, I would try to let it go rather than call her again. Can you remember the words she said that helped you so much yesterday and write them down where you can see them? When i was in a similar kind of panic last week, one of the times i talked with her she said "i'm not going anywhere", and i wrote those words down on paper and stuck it to my computer screen so i could just keep seeing that and reassure myself when the doubts crept in. Your T is not terminating, she even said that your insurance co will cover for as long as medically necessary. my T has been doing the mediaclly necessary thing with my is co for 7 years! So try to put the "months" thing out of your head. She is not setting a termination date. As long as you work hard, she will be with you through it i'm sure.