Twice now I've needed maitenence in my apt and he's supposed to CALL before he shows up. Twice he's just SHOWN UP at 10am. I'm not functioning at that hour and twice have been in my pjs. the first time i let him in.
THIS TIME, i was about to be in the shower. I didn't see who it was, I didn't answer - it scares me to have ppl at my door. He went away and i nearly relaxed my guard - but what if the person came back??? I waited. sure enough! he came back with a KEY to get in!!!! I heard the main door open and looked thru the hole and saw him getting the key out. Thamkfully he knocked and i yelled in my sleepy voice "who is it" and said he couldn't come in. he said you've got some problem and i have time now. I said hang on and got a robe and even tho i've been up an hour, i protrayed myself as having just got out of bed, rubbing my eyes (forgetting there's SI marks there damn it to which his eyes kept straying). I told him he's suppoed to CALL first!!! He said he has time now why can't he see the leak (IN THE SHOUWER) I told him i've got to shower and run (to group and there's no ****ing way now I will be able to shower cuz i'm no too freaked out!!!! He would ahve come in my place! WIth me in the shouwer! Has this happened before?!? Will this happen again!??!?! He's NOT supposed to come in with out permission or without me being here. **** **** ****!!!!!). He said he'd have time today - i told him LATER. and that the leak is huge and that the wall is gonna fall in. He said it's my upstairs neighbor's problem and went to her place (she sleeps by day!!!).
OMG i am just shaking and AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Makes me mad, makes the ptsd crap surface again, makes me on edge..... I now have to leave in half an hour and I'm still sitting here shaking. Damn.