This week has suuuuuuuuuuuucked........

Almost had a mental break down at work yesterday, mainly due to my paranoia that I think that everyone hates me, which is not actually the case, but we all know how a BP mind can work (or not). I ended up calling my husband, and he told me that I need to look at work as a production/game, and the whole point of the production/game is to not care what other people think/say about you at work. The reason to work, is so you get paid, not to make friends. <-----THAT IS THE HARDEST PART. I don't have many friends, and I've been trying sooooo freaking hard to make some here at work. Most of the times I end up blowing it b/c they always want to talk about what you should not talk about at work (Social/Economic/Religion/Politics) and since I'm atheist and have very liberal thinking, you can guess how that conversation would go. Since I work with religious conservatives who don't like to be questioned about the whole religion thing, things don't always go over too well.

Anyways, last night I decided to try it out, the whole acting thing (even though I always enjoyed tech theater to actually acting) and it actually went pretty well today. I just kept reminding myself what my husband said last night:

"If you never went back to work, would anybody even miss you? OR on the other hand, if the tank farms blew up while you weren't there, would you really miss those people b/c they are just so awesome you can't live without them?"

Heh. The worst part about that, was my initial thought of all my stuff I have in my cube would be gone....

So maybe I can get into this whole acting thing b/c i feel a lot better today.