So I took temazepam at 7 right after I ate my dinner. Was still wide awake at midnight. I don't think the stuff works on me at all. I was getting to sleep around 1 or so without anything. Not taking any tonight.

This morning I had no Geodon or Nuvigil. I honestly can't tell the difference. I mean, I'm anxious, but I was more anxious yesterday and the day before when I had taken them. It's so weird. All the meds I cut out of my life, it's like they're doing nothing anyway. Maybe nothing works on me. Maybe my mood just recovers and plummets to its own tune. It's unmedicatable. Not a real word, but should be one.

I wish I could feel happy again, though. All I feel is numb or sad or anxious or a combination of them. I had the same problem when I was on a ton of meds too. At least comedy shows can still make me laugh sometimes. Colbert and Daily Show and the Ricky Gervais Show mainly. So my emotions are there, they're just usually buried.