(((TheBakery))) Im a leader at work and a follower as soon as I hit the parking lot. Afraid to make the wrong decision, afraid to speak up, break the rules. I hate it too... We just have to nudge ourselves gently so that we dont get out of the habit of making decisions for ourselves. Make little decisions every now and then to stay in practice. There is nothing wrong with you being submissive to your bf as long as he is gentle, kind, has a good head on his shoulders, and your best interest in mind. As far as the animal noises you make...I actually speak verbally for all of my animals, and in different accents. Its pretty funny. I crack my sister and myself up all the time. More importantly it brings us joy, no matter how strange others may see it. If it makes you happy, then purr away my friend. Doesnt make you weird at all.