Can you try creative visualization and picture T sitting with you. Then ask her what you need to hear and see if you can visualize her true response. I have been trying to do that and it is AMAZING how that works!! Even can result in nice three hour dream sessions with my T!! I will tell T "Yeah! I talked with you for HOURS last night!" And he just smiles. He said that is one of the goals of therapy - to allow a person to develop that internal therapist to counteract the internal critic.