I feel ok.. I have certain things running through my mind but i dont want the negativity to make me feel bad on my birthday. I dont need another crappy birthday. I feel bad about myself sometimes. The fact that i dont go anywhere and i look like hell. I have to change that this year. It seems so hard.....i cant keep feeling the same way forever. I have to find some way to feel comfortable with myself and live a successful life. Im about to officially be an adult!! I want to lose weight and get a job and not feel like s$%t anymore. I dont think im completely hopeless.......