going from 10 days without SI to now zero.. gotta start the count over i guess since tonight wasnt a cut-free one afterall..

im getting so tired of always falling back to cutting. four ----ing months without it and two weeks ago, i blew it and did it daily for a bit, and then i made plans to stop. again. and i failed. AGAIN. why cant i just stop, once and for all? why cant i just leave my shakey past of SI behind me and Move On?

so fracking tired of this, i really am... but not enough to quit for good i guess :/

--bluegirl