(((((((((((((Purple fins))))))))))))))))))))

I understand that kicked in the gut feeling, mine just comes in diffrent ways, I'm very fearful of being used, seen as an object, by men, it has had a lot of damage on my current relationship, and it still affects me a lot.

All it takes is one scentence said wrong, or me in the wrong mindset, and I freak out, I isolate, shove away, withdraw. I start getting pariond and jumpy.

I know how hard it is, I've talked to my T about it, and the man I'm involved with about it some, it's hard to talk about, hard sometimes to make others understand, but it helps, journaling over it, has helped me a lot, I can go back and read how I was feeling, and show my T and together we work on figuring out ways to deal with that trigger and the feelings so they don't have a negative impact on my life or relationship. First time I brought this up with T I thought she would laugh at me, or tell me I was crazy, but she said it's nothing to be embrassed about and that many abuse surviors have these fears, triggers, feelings, they just all come out in diffrent ways.

I believe you can conquer this fins, you are such a strong person and so kind. You are a person of vaule, not an object and you have so much worth.

Sitting here with you and sending lots of hugs
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