I've spent hours and hours researching and reading about different mental illnesses since last Fall after my 18 yo daughter attempted suicide.

Up until that point, although I just knew something was wrong, I looked the other way hoping it would go away. Big mistake.

Since then, in Feb. of this year, she was diagnosed bipolar. I have tore the internet apart looking for knowledge, information, support, and hope.

My heart is breaking...as of last night, I had to have her leave my home. She refuses medication (also has hypothyroidism), will not get a job (even if it's something simple and part time), steals, lies, and is completely disrespectful in my home.

I hurt so bad...I wish I had a do-over with her...but know deep down inside that even that may not have changed anything. When I think of her, I cry...I picture her as that little innocent girl...until her world absolutely crumbled when she entered high school.

I want to fix her...I want to shelter her...I want to make everything OK for her...but I can't.

I admire those of you who are taking charge and advocating for yourselves in living with and managing bipolar. I hope in time that my daughter will do the same because after many painful experiences, I've realized that I can't do it for her.

God Bless You All