I was only on medical leave for about 10 days... I could have used longer, but don't have any other income and didn't have any vacation/sick time that I could use. I'm amazed that I was able to hold it together Thursday night... we had a situation involving physical violence and a near riot among our clients. I've never had a panic attack, but felt like I was on the verge for most of Friday evening. I really, really need to find a different job. I had a second interview last week for a job that would be a much better fit, and they've been checking my references the last few days. I'm really hoping that they offer me the job next week. I get so overwhelmed at my current job and dread going to work so much that it is a major trigger for my depression. I'm leaving for work in a few minutes, and don't quite know how I am going to get through the night.