First, going to small claims court is not mean. If a person owes you money and refuses to pay it back, that is mean.

Second, if he were honorable and owed you money, he would have paid you back already if he had the means or, if he did not have the immediate means to pay you back, he would have responded by now to your repeated attempts to get him to acknowledge you. Therefore, he is dishonorable. He is also a police officer...a bad combination.

I would say that you have no financial recourse against a dishonorable police officer. Whether it is feelings of love or of debt that have kept you bound to this man, I think it is almost certainly in your best interests to walk away and consider this a life lesson for the price of a refrigerator.