I'm sorry I feel like I am crashing this forum uninvited.
I'm new and I haven't posted much but I've been lurking a lot.

I just got home from seeing my T and it just hurts. I told her I need her I need her so much, and I'm sorry I need her and she said it was okay. None of this is new...it just hasn't gotten any easier. I said I felt like a little girl and she asked me what I needed when I said I need her and I said I don't know. I just don't know I just need her and I want her and I miss her.
I'm scared to be alone with my feelings. What if my feelings are scary and she's not here to make it better? I try to soothe myself but I just end up crying more.