wow...thank you so much for your kind words and support. I'm struggling hard with what's happened...this is not the first time I had to put her out.

I know she's not on the street...I also know that it may just be a matter of time before she is...the pit in my stomach grows every time I realize all the "what ifs" and possibilities.

I tell myself that until she comes to terms with the fact that she has an illness, she will not do anything to help herself. I have talked with her...telling her that at its core, this IS a physical illness...it just manifests itself mentally and emotionally.

She is applying for SSI and since she's moved out, she may qualify for some state aid, hopefully insurance since she has none.

Even though she is 19, she was living with me, and that voided any help she could get through the public aid programs.

I have given her numbers for help to NAMI, Social Service programs, etc....maybe she will reach that point now to call since she really has nothing to fall back on anymore.

I'm so grateful that even though I feel so wrong about this, it truly is the right thing...I just have to get my head AND my heart on the same page...