Im very sory that you feel that way. I know what your going through. I pre-live things the way I want them to happen, before they actualy happen and it always gets me down. It's like I always feel that I am being selfish and turning it from that person's b-day to its all about me day!

It's normal. What I like to do, and maybe this can help you, is when everything is not going the way I planned I sit down and think about it and I just take a few deep breaths and figure that the day isn't going to go forever and that every hting will be different tomorow.

I hope this little technique helps you out.

Roman.