Yes, something is missing. It's hard to find out what that is, and even support usually can't fill it. You did a great job though, telling all of those people, and us. Remember, we're all working on filling those voids together.

What are you doing now when you feel it coming on? I know you can feel it coming, that something is building. Sometimes it's hard to recognize what the feelings are and to be sure if you're going to fall, but you can feel something is there... Like the wind.

So what do you do to keep yourself busy? Do you do things you find enjoyment in? I've been trying to exercise more and am even getting into meditation. I am hoping this will help.