I have read and read until my eyes have fallen out of their sockets. Not really, obviously, but I'm trying to understand Bipolar. The doctors think I have it, and I've accepted it, but other times I decide it's not right. Anyway, no matter how many times I read the symptoms I don't always full understand them.

I know what it means to be super happy and super depressed and all that, but I need to know more.

Is there anyone here who can help me better understand?

What exactly do you feel and think in a manic or hypomanic episode? How greatly do those two differ? What about a depressed episode and definitely a mixed? Mixed is very confusing to me. What does it feel like to be happy and sad?

Half the time I can't pick a mood and can't really recognize things inside myself. Maybe others are better at this than me?