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Old Jun 06, 2010, 12:27 AM
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okay so my names hailey. i have bipolar 1 disorder. as a result little things tend to make me really upset, i think (correct me if im wrong) its called an "episode of depression" and it will occur over something as little as someone deleting my recordings off of the dvr. thats all it takes for me to feel worthless.

when i get upset i cut myself and i don't really know why, because when im happy the logic doesnt make much sense to me.

i like the sense of control i have over my body when i self inflict pain, which probably sounds really stupid, but whatever.

anyway so the other day i decided that maybe if i told my boyfriend i would feel obligated to stop cutting myself, so i told him. and he really didn't seem to be much effected by this which is very upsetting to me.
he knows im bipolar so maybe he expected it but all he really says is "im sorry you have it rough but i don't judge you"

i thought telling him would make me want to stop but in reality it makes me want to do it even more.
gah this all probably sounds really dumb but.okaaay.



advice appreciated.
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