don't know if anyone remembers me, but I thought I'd \give an update as to my goals and what not.

So everything has proceeded as I expected. I think I may be happy, it's rather hard to tell. Sometimes I worry myself because it just feels like people are so easy to manipulate, like they are all a bunch of puppets.

Still I am telling myself that I am doing what I am doing for the right reasons. I have grown rather close to my new surrogate family. I really think I am having a positive influence on their lives. I'm a little worried about the mother of the child, she's not as emotionally stable as I would prefer but I think it'll be easy enough to control the situation. I'm glad I decided to pursue this. I ended up in the hospital due to heart problems, nothing to serious but being 27 it doesn't really bode well... Trying to enjoy life while it's here and have been trying to make others lives easier as well..

But why do I feel like I have a hidden agenda... I wonder if I will ever learn to trust myself.. but of course.. maybe I shouldn't be trusted