Some of you know that I've been working hard on boutique items. The boutique was this last Thursday through yesterday. For the last week, I've been having symptoms but at first, failed to recognize that it was anxiety... you know... the heart palpitations and light-headedness. UGH!

Night before last it came to a head. I woke up in the early hours of the morning but I was okay. It's normal for me... but when I tried to get back to sleep, I started feeling that tingling in my chest and down my left arm. That's when it dawned on me. I rolled over on my back and it stopped. But yesterday, all day, I didn't want to move, I didn't want to go to the boutique and when I got there, I mostly hid in the RV. However, I noticed that when I went in and talked to my friends there, re-arrenged my items, etc., I was okay. Still, I couldn't wait to pack up and come home.

Today, I'm having "letdown." (And not the milk kind! LOL) I just feel totally lost with nothing to do. Oh, I have things I have to do, but they don't have the urgency that the boutique items did. I'd like to burrow in and forget about everything, but guess what happens when I burrow in? I start thinking negative thoughts. ggrrrrrr

Anyway!! What I wanted to say was that without even knowing it, I used #3 and #4 of the above without even thinking about it. It has become a natural reaction. The tingling in my chest and arm was just an adrenaline rush and I recognized it as such. When I moved around at the boutique, my symptoms went away. I used up the extra adrenaline and kept my mind busy. I even had another adrenaline rush sitting around the table chatting with my friends but I just let it come and go. Nobody knew what was happening.

The whole thing was still frightening, inconvenient and uncomfortable. You can bet I'm calling my doctor tomorrow because it's unacceptable to me to get this way with something as minor as being with old friends for three days. JEEZ! Maybe a slightly larger doze of Celexa is in order. I don't know. I'm also going to tell him about the palpitations just to make sure. Better safe than sorry!

It sure gets frustrating when you can't behave naturally without the system going haywire!