Hi abs, welcome to the forums! If you ever need someone asap try the chat room, it's more immediate than the forums, but the replies in the forums DO come, just have to wait a little while.
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so bad! Try to distract yourself from the cutting, find something else to focus on if you can.
There's a self harm section on these forums, which might help you, but also... not sure if it would trigger you ? So... that's up to you whether you think you could go in there and talk to others there.

So... do you have any plans for the day? Something to take your mind off everything? I'm stuck indoors on my own, I had a little stressy fit and ended up not going out with my family.

Hope you are staying safe. let us know if you can x