Tree, then I'll be in therapy the rest of my life. If I could accept that, then I wouldn't have to fight it. But, if the reason to be in therapy is just to be with the T, then it's unethical from the T's point of view, isn't it? Bt told me something like that. Seeing my pattern repeat and repeat depresses me. I wish therapy for me could be like it is for you. But I feel ashamed that I'm still in therapy. I imposed the word "addiction" on it. Kt doesn't like that word. I don't know if I need therapy or if I want it. Oh, this could be another thread about needs vs wants, but I don't have the energy now. Tree, thanks for being here right now.