I feel AWFUL2day cuz last nite I seriously flipped out on my fiance. Said I hate him, he makes my life hell, wish I never met him....I felt horrible as soon as I said it but he was being mean2me, bringing up the past&making me feel like he was accusing me of something. Sometimes I get so pissed&I scream&yell&sometimes I throw things, too. Its bad cuz I know its coming, my eyes start2burn, I feel like everything is red, my heart races&then I flip out. I tried counting to10but it just gives me10seconds more2get good and angry.