(((((((( Jexa )))))))))

This sounds like such a hard place for you to be in right now. But even though you can't see it, you really are making progress. The reason I say that is because a big part of the work is feeling the pain when we are in a bad pattern. You are doing that today! You are not escaping or trying to rationalize away this bad place. It is where you are, and you are feeling it fully.

Maybe with your T you are projecting some of your own internal frustrations with yourself? A T sometimes will mirror back to us what they observe so it allows us to see our actions from an outside point of view.

Sending you very big hugs as you process through this pain and learning and growth!