I feel so bad that I can't give support lately.
I too feel this way sometimes. No worries

I just need to spill.
Anytime that's why we are here.

This was our sixth date. I thought it was time for the monogamy conversation. So I had the monogamy conversation with him, "If we're going to be having sex, I need to know you're committed to me, only me." Turns out, he's been regularly dating more than one girl, this WHOLE TIME. I don't know how many. He wouldn't tell me. All I know is that I am just one of his girls. That is all I ever was to this guy. THIS WAS OUR SIXTH DATE, AND HE DIDN'T TELL ME THIS! Not until I asked!!! I didn't know he was seeing more than one girl! How could he not tell me this before????
Bravo to you Jexa for speaking up and asking the questions before getting 'involved'. You just saved yourself from experiencing a ton more pain (not that what your feeling is by anymeans easy) Shame on him for leading you to believe something different about your dating relationship.

I've been crying all day. I feel so stupid for not seeing the signs. I feel so foolish for not keeping my heart in check.
That part of you is special (the part that wants to give an recieve love). Shutting down will only make it so the 'right guy' won't see you. After this experience you will be better able to spot the wrong type of guy.

I always give SO MUCH of myself to people in relationships. And now.. again.. I get crushed. If you feel that you give too much/so much of yourself to people in relationships then what is reasonable to give? What can you learn from this experience?

Stay strong Jexa.