I lost my job in Feb. of 2009. I had misses too much work because of hospitalizations. I did have notes from my doctor as to why I missed work (well, the notes said that I was ill there was no mention of mental illness). But on the last day I worked I started having hallucinations. I opened up to my boss and told him I was BP and that I was having hallucinations and that I didn't know if I was going to be able to stay or not. 20 minutes later I get called into a meeting room by my director and in the room were two policeman and two ambulance guys! Good my boss was stupid! There was no need to call the cops on me. I was hallucinating but not delusional. I having suicidal ideation but no plans. Still, they hauled me away to the hospital with the policemen escorting me along the way. I have never been so humiliated.

I was never allowed to return to work except that one week later I was told I could return. When I got there I was called into an office and I was laid off. Obviously they didn't want someone with mental illness to work for them even though I had worked for them for 3 three years.

Fast forward to now, I am now living with my mom and on Welfare. I still haven't found a job. I am so depressed that some days I cannot get out of bed and I have suicidal ideation. I try as hard as possible to find a job but the economy is so bad here that I don't have much of chance to find one. I want to move out West where there are more jobs but I don't have the money to make the move.

I never thought I would be in this position. I am very unhappy but I keep trying to move forward.