if i didnt NEED therapy i would not go. it costs money, real world relationships would be far more fulfilling, time, etc I would have NO WANT for it if i did not need.

but i NEED therapy.
how do i know...
-- my real world life is a total disaster

for example:
-i am 20 and i want to be dead every day of my life
-i grew up in foster care after being removed by CPS from terribly abusive bioparents. this led to some disorders characteristic of severly abused kids. these disorders affect my life and interrupt my life in MANY ways
-i am really afraid of people

i look at my life and it is so sad. i want my life to be better and i need help. i need help. i dont' know how to do it myself. my life is a mess.

I NEED therapy. i can pinpoint how my life is so unfullfilling for someone my age and i dont know how to fix me. that is NEED.

I think you need to ask yourself-----
----what do you need to change in your life and why?
----what is happening in the real world that you need therapy?
----what is affecting your life and making it a mess?