Solar, I don't understand that statement myself. You know how IFS is. T was asking me how the part that wants to stay in therapy forever feels. That sentence popped out. It's like I'm in two worlds. I love and am grateful for my husband, kids, and grandchildren and I would not choose my T over them. But, yes it often seems like the need to be with my T is greater than the need to be with my family. It makes me feel sad to feel that way. No, we're not a broken family. I don't know what's wrong with me that I would think that statement. My T commented on it, but I don't remember exactly what she said at the time. I KNOW I have a lot to live for, but therapy seems like a different place. You weren't out of bounds at all.

Bloom, I used to call it transference until I got to about my third T and it seemed more like an addiction. I've read a lot about transference and know what it is. I realize my feelings for my T are transference, and if I remember correctly, my former Ts except for Bt all tried to "work through" it. But they ended up saying "You can't make up what you missed; you just have to make the best of it" or something to that effect. One T said "you can't have the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, but you can have the goodies along the way." Maybe I'm wrong, but that feels like putting a band-aid on a gaping hole.

WePow, I have a mosaic inside of me. I like that. Your ideas are different. I'll think about them. Thank you for spending time trying to help. I think I'm taking too much time on PC; I'm getting embarrassed about it. If I'm deep, I'm only deep here and in therapy.