Greylove, I am sorry for what you've been through. I can totally relate like the others who answered. Lost my confidence, lost some mental capacity in the last 3 years, inadequate, grieving for who I once was when I appeared to be normal 85 % of the time. That was chalked up to moodiness and stubborness. Etc, etc. You know the deal too well. So yes, greylove. You are in good company and not alone. This community is awesome so I hope you keep coming by.