I'm wondering if he might add a low dose of an anti-depressant med since I do run more on the depressed side, although it is mild. I did have that hypomanic episode a week or so ago, but that was the first one in a long time and I think it was brought on by stress and lack of sleep. I know there is a risk of spiraling up into mania, but I've only been fully manic with hallucinations and paranoia once, and that was when a doc put me on an anti-depressant with no mood stabalizer. I don't know; I think at this point I'm willing to risk it because I seriously can't deal with the exhaustion much longer. I'm already stressed just by adding all of these new activities, especially the therapy, and being so tired just makes the stress worse and then I get overwhelmed and just want to quit everything and stay home again.

Speaking of therapy, I have an appointment in the morning and I am scared to go. I had a flashback and anxiety attack during the last session and I'm completely humiliated and feel like I'm weak for not being able to prevent it. I'm also afraid he's going to say "sorry, you're too messed up, I can't help you". IDK.