I can relate Greylove. I too was diagnosed recently and quite late in my life...the feeling of incompetency, shame over the stigma...the feeling of FAILURE was so overwhelming and unbearable during my episode. My only regret was that I was not diagnosed earlier. Had I known early, I wouldn't have made some of the decisions I have made that made life quite difficult for me and my family.
The good news is by knowing, I can now pick the pieces of my life once again. It is a hard 'rising up from a terrible fall' but it is possible. In the meantime...take your time to heal...Good luck to you.