Feeling as if my whole world has collided,I worked so hard to give myself things I could never have. now I don't Have anything,again!! I look back and see how much time I'v invested into everything and still I have nothing. I feel so Angry deep inside, so Angry a simple word could just make me cry. 8 yrs in a relationship that "FAILED", 5 yrs as a sales consultant" FAILED".3 yrs in an apartment I invested so much money in "FAILED". I feel I am a complete Failure. all thanks too feeling sorry for myself and this stupid PTSD! always in the wrong place at the wrong time...
I turn to the Bible to get some comfort and try to stop my thoughts from racing. just to keep myself from crying.Everyday I want to cry.I want to screem. WHY?? I feel so confused. getting ready to go back too moms,
I feel embarresed, ashamed,Numb and cold. Thoughts just keep racing. what will I be, Deciding My future feels like a dream.I'm going to sleep!