Blue, I think I am addicted, though its been hard to see because its silent not like my alcohol addiction. T knows, but shes never said I'm addicted, perhaps she thinks until I'm ready she can't stop me, perhaps I wanted her to stop me, but its been in the room with us for a few yrs now, I guess I feel a bit disappointed in her in this respect, but when I first begun therapy with her I'd been sober 18months and she said she hoped I was getting support for that, because she doesnt deal with that even though it will come up. Maybe I'm just looking to put the responsiblity onto someone else?? I dunno, I think I wanted her to help me a bit more in this area. I haven't had any in 7 days. I need to stay stopped I Know