Suga,

I'm okay if I'm alone...I usually always have them alone. The Lamictal for my bipolar is also my seizure medicine (I am lucky in that). It controls them for the most part, but after a bad bout of depression/crying...somehow that triggers them.

Luckily, they are simple or complex partial seizures...I feel a rush of heat unlike a hot flash (lol) and feel my knees start to give out. I've always managed to sit down. When I used to work, and had them in front of people, they would say I'd just say 'I don't feel well" and then I can't remember what else.

Last time was (luckily) on the carpet in the dining room. I "woke up"...and I feel like drunk afterward...that's the only way I can describe it....I couldn't figure out why I was looking at the chandelier feeling drunk in the middle of the day. It took me some time to put together that I'd had a seizure. That's the only bad part...you're very confused afterward. I just sleep it off. Luckily, they aren't grand mals (my great aunt has those...and she's also on Lamictal....it seems to run in the family...I also have a brain lesion that they call a UBO - Unidentified Brain Object. I looked at the neuro-radiologist like he was making a joke...but apparently they actually call it that).

I haven't had an MRI in years because I guess I'm scared to see what my little lesion is up to (I call it "Freddy"...hah!! I have to have humor about it). It's in the middle of my left frontal lobe...so no surgery...it's right on the personality area. I would rather live like "myself" than as a shell. When they first discovered it (about 3 years ago), I was just beside myself....I told my Dad I wouldn't have surgery because then I wouldn't be "me". He said I wouldn't know the difference. Hah!!! Not funny, but it is at the same time.

I won't drive for a couple of days right now...just in case. I'll take a bit more Lamictal to make sure they're under control. It's nice to know the pattern though.

Thanks, Suga. I <3 you!